well, here we go...

I was just writing stuff a couple of days ago and this just poured out...it was going to be all of a paragraph or two and just look what happened......



God is so amazing! He provides for us even when we don't think of Him. The kind of love that is that vast is incomprehensible to a lowly human like myself. I have seen so many things in my life that point to His love and majesty. Awe-inspiring sunsets, huge mountains that seem so big as if they could take over the sky, tiny animals and plants that are perfection in every leaf and whisker, the kindness and even cruelty of human beings. While human cruelty may not seem a blessing, for me it serves to demonstrate the imperfection of the human race and highlights that much more the beauty of the world and in the other people around me. For example, people often belittle, pity, and stare at differences. One way I have personally seen this happen is to mentally handicapped adults. Yes, they act, talk, or walk differently from "normal" people, but then, what is normal? These so-called mentally incompetent human beings are often purer-minded and sweeter-natured than those "normal" humans. I have seen first hand the desire to sing a song learned years ago at church camp (they have minds, too, you know), the wish to just hold a hand, or the simple desire to be loved. What if they do seem to have the attention span of a child? They concentrate on the now! What I could learn from following that example! I know I get distracted easily! I lose focus in the midst of homework, class, even prayer sometimes; I start thinking or praying about something else. What if I applied the same single-mindedness that these individuals have to my every day life? Maybe I would focus more on the conversations with God, family, and friends. Maybe I would finish homework faster and have time for the other things I was thinking about.
Now, I'm not saying multi-tasking is bad, but when so-called multi-tasking comes into play and it takes away from the overall goal, that's when I need to cut it out. And would you look at that, I got off-topic a bit, but stream-of-consciousness really works sometimes.
Back to the original idea - God's awesomeness - His blessings - some, like those handicapped individuals, in disguise - all serve to give us a glimpse of His beauty and goodness. For me, if that means learning a lesson about how to praise Him from watching how others react to every day life, I count that as a lesson worth learning!
He has blessed me so much and I realize I don't thank Him enough for that. He really is amazing and He loves me. Me. It is humbling and the biggest, best present I could ever hope to receive.